I Don't know What To Do

We got that duplex, and we can't afford it, I knew we couldn't afford it from the beginning, and had voiced my opinion on it, from the beginning. And now that it is becoming a realization, it seems like everyone is frustrated with me. I might not be disappointed, I mean I am of course I am, but I might not be that upset about the situation because maybe this just isn't meant to be, which is really unfortunate because I want to be back on my own more than anyone knows. Shane and I know that we could find a job, we just don't exactly know how long it's going to take, and Cassandra is having to put a LOT of money in this first part, there is  chance that we can wait but then that stupid asian girl will get the duplex, which is inconvenient for us. And I guess that I am being too rude, when I am not doing anything different than I normally do, and saying things that i haven't already said about this situation. I am going to duramed and McDonald's and a few other places today, it is just such a time crunch.

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we'll see what happens

I need a camera

Once i get a camera, and my computer back I'm going to do a day in the life. There are some of you, I don't know if anyone really see's this, but I'm going to do a day in the life post. I've changed a lot, grown up a lot, and would like to show people who would like to know what it is like in a day in the life, of just_christopher

Evaluations, Money, Writing, Frustration and indie music

I need money, and I either need a second job, or a promotion. I have my evaluation on monday, and I am betting I can guest what is going to be said. "You don't wear your complete uniform, blah blah blah." I am getting really tired of her false statements, they aren't false accusations, because I don't wear my work shoes. Which is crap, especially if they take the chairs away, like they are threatening, because my work shoes are very uncomfortable. I wanna use this, or another, blog to make money, I'm considering ad sense, but I have to work on my key-wording and such, and grammar skills, so who knows. But, back to my job and evaluation, I don't know what to do, I am really torn and stuck on if i should help her out and offer suggestions on things that i think she can be doing better, or just start being like everyone else and caring less, which is the really hard part. I enjoy my job, and the company could be worse. I am going to talk to her about a promotion, because she obviously doesn't care, or doesn't want to make the time needed for this job, which is understandable, she has a baby, and a family, and a wedding to plan and everything...so hopefully it will go okay. Because I am more available than anyone else that works here, I just don't understand why she doesn't want to give me anymore responsibility, I keep this place on lock, for the majority of the time, and am even willing to come in when i can to help people with problems that arise, considering all of our managers live in sacramento, so it takes them at least 15 minutes to get here, and that is if they are really leaving when they say.

I need want to work on my writing skills, I would love to become a full time blogger while working at this job, it would be pretty sweeeet. But who knows how that is going to work out, I know for sure that i am going to get either an associates or 60 credits to transfer to a four year, probably sac state, so I'm going to brush up on my english and math, of course they are needed for an associates. 

I am really frustrated right now, it might be because I only slept like 3 hours last night, but it is also partly because I've been wanting to talk to shane, and I know that Tawny is there, not that it isn't okay, and some people are going to look at this like I am jealous, but i am not, but don't tell me your busy and hang up, it makes me feel second. Or don't not sounds busy and be short with me, I haven't done anything.

I've grown pretty fond of "indie" music, and I guess it might just be mainstream "indie" but it is really good, at least I think, but not many other people do. Here are my top fav songs atm, in no particular order

The Postal Service: The District Sleeps Alone Tonight

Mae: Suspension

Lovedrug: Down Towards The Healing

The Ting Ting's: Great DJ

Ingrid Michealson: DIe Alone

and i don't like it because i can relate, because I am currently really happy and content with the way things are going irl, i like it because it has substance and it is different than what we normally listen to.

I'm out, spread the word.