wow.

Wow. these past few weeks have been a major roller coaster, i know a lot of my friends are surprised by the break up of shane and I. It shouldn't be a surprise, i love the boy, i really do, i am just not ready to settle down, and i am not ready to start planning things for the future, i know that we had talked about some pretty intense things in the beginning of our re-relationship, but i think in our hearts we both know that we moved to fast.

 I am trying to move on, things are going okay, I'm just really worried about a few people who've been really upset lately. I want to be able to help them,  I would love to take all of their problems away, because these people do not deserve the problems that are being thrown at them right now. I am used to being  the person that helps people feel better, and i am trying with these people it is just very hard when they don't want to open up, which is fine with me, just as long as they know i am here whenever they are ready.

School. What a stressful subject; I moved back here, trying to get back into it, and it isn't happening the way i wanted, mainly because i didn't get my financial aid paperwork in on time, and i know there isn't a rush; i am done rushing things, you have forever to do what you want to do, what rush, does that make sense to anyone else? But i found this course at CSU east bay, all online pharmacy tech program, something that has interested me, so i am going to look into it.

I am not going to forget about this blog. It's going to be used, myspace is old.

time for bed now..