It Is The Nineteenth Of November Two Thousand Eight

And, I can't fucking believe it. This year is almost over, and now is about the time i start to get down own myself, which is opposite of what needs to be done during the holiday's. But it always make me think about how I haven't done anything very productive for the past year; yea, I've done some amazing things, I moved across country 2 times in a three month period, got married, bought a car, and managed to get myself in more debt than i could manage. But I, once again, didn't do the one thing that I wanted to; I am still not in school. But I guess that gets chalked up to, once again, me being passive aggressive, and not knowing how to listen to myself before I listen to anyone else. This isn't a searching for sympathy blog, it is just a blog, where I talk about things that are on my mind, and have the freedom to speak how I want without offending anyone.

...I'm sitting at work, and it is now 8:52, I've been flipping through my numerous open tabs, reading about the ships in the gulf of Aden, which is a blast let me tell you, and looking at phones, which is no surprise, and wanting a puppy. My mind is all over the place, once again, there is no surprise there. I'm tired, and the Burger King i got for breakfast is making my stomach hurt.

I'm still currently looking for a second job. Cassandra doesn't understand why I want one, but it isn't really a want anymore; it is almost a need. Shane and I have a lot of debt, and it isn't very good. We need to get our car paid off early; and I know that this is selfish, but I want my mother fucking G1 god damn it. I feel like i wait for EVERYTHING, and it just isn't fair. And an off topic note, I didn't know, and this might seem like a shock, that you were able to make text bigger or smaller in Firefox using the ctrl command, like one a mac, ha. Shows how much i use windows. Back to topic, I just don't know where to apply, granted I haven't honestly put forth any effort, but I really need to start, Shane found a job in like a day, and I know that I could if I really wanted to, just once again, laziness. Man, I am really seeing a lot of repetitive qualities that I dislike, time for a self-image makeover.

So I have a goal for myself, to find a job in 3 weeks, and if nothing there is nothing, but something needs to be found.

That is kinda ridiculous, it took me an hour and a half to post this entry, and it isn't even long.