I know that a week ago I said that I wasn't ready to commit, but it's time I stop running from everything. I run from every major commitment that I make. I'm scared to go to school, i'm scared of a lot. So if i'm going to commit to something it's time I commit to something/someone that makes me happy. It's time for me to grow up, and it's time for me to start being a man, instead of a little pansy boy who doesn't do anything in order to pace the road for his future.
I went shopping today. It was really hard. His best friend came, which is fine, it's a relationship that i'm willing and going to try to work on, it is just still hard because I feel like I have to fight for his attention, and I don't want that. He told me on the way home that he was uncomfortable all day because he feels like he can't be himself, the person he is around her rather, because he doesn't want me to think that he is stupid. Shane, I will never think your stupid. I know how it is to act different with one friend as opposed to another, and it's nothing to be ashamed of, it is just something your going to have to realize and if the person is wanting you to change a serious friendship like the two of you have, the person isn't worth your time. I will never make, or ask, you to change the way you act because your annoying or bothering me, I will suck it up because I know that things are like that when the tables are turned.
Life's good
And for the first time in a long time
I can say that i'm happy
It's been years since i've been able to say that.
It's bedtime now. Goodnight.
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